NOT BORING ANYMORE

things can change quickly. pt and i got into this loud discussion last night. he doesn't understand when his family lies to us and blows us off, or he has been lying to me, and now it is all coming together. i don't know which one is actually happening, and i don't really care. i just know i'm hurt, and angry, and nobody really cares, after all, it is only me they are walking over. peter is certainly not going to stand up for me. his sister who was going to stay with us for three weeks, is now only going to stay with us for only a few nights. the week i took off for vacation to spend with them is not good enough. i originally wanted to take a long weekend and go to new york to see them, and pt thought that idea was needless. he said that we would spent plenty of time with them when they stayed with us. that isn't going to happen. i knew we would not see them when they were in this area, and it turns out that i am probably right. i love how peter called me today with the idea of going up to new york to see them, like it was an epiphany. he made me feel stupid when i suggested it, and now that it is his idea it could not be more brilliant. i want to strangle him. i want to strangle the entire family. anyway, i talked with carolyn, and changed my week off, and we will be going out of out way to see them, like i proposed in the first place. i just wish it could have been done with less drama, and less stress. i think i am developing an ulcer over this.

work was no less stressful. greg was in a mood, and the front decided to double book a chest pain. he decided to take it out on me. i love days like that.

there is a 5k with the westminster road runners tonight. i'm not sure i want to go, but it is probably good for me. i'd really rather stay in and cry and eat, but, i don't want to fall back into old habits. it will also do me some good to see other runners. if judy is there i will have a back of the packer to talk to during the run.

ran the race. judy was there, and it was nice to have a back of the packer to talk to. she keeps a nice pace, and we finished in just over 36 minutes. i was pleased with that time. it is three minutes better than last year. she is from that area, and knew the hills. it was nice to have the warning.

we dropped the dog off at sharon's for the weekend. we will be leaving early to mid afternoon. i wish i felt like celebrating. i still have the desire to strangle my husband. i am half backed, and should feel better in the morning. tomorrow should be a good day. we have a morning in jehovah's service planned, then we are changing our clothes quickly, and off to philly. i just wish peter understood how hurt i am. i guess he wishes i understood how powerless he feels, put that is untrue. he either needs to hole people accountable to what they say to him, and call them out on their lies, or tell me he was lying to me. i just feel dumped on and walked over, and nobody is even here yet. it is only going to get worse when people actually get in town.