not a much better day today. i've continued with the feeling in my stomach that a tree has rooted and is growing there. it just doesn't feel right. my nerves are shot. it's like i've had too much coffee when i clearly have not had too much coffee. i have no idea what to do. i went down to see cathy today, but i don't think that did any good. we talked for a while, but i still don't feel well. i was planning to go to the gym, but porsche never called back, so i went home, then to cathy's. in the end, i blew off the gym. my running has really suffered this week, but i really just wanted to be alone. i was almost afraid to be out today.

they also had me training christy in the back today. she was hired for the front, but has decided to pursue her nursing degree. the infinite wisdom of management has decided to keep her on for thrusday nights and saturdays in the back (a worthless seven hours). it fell on me today to "train" her how we do stuff. i don't think i'm qualified to train someone a years worth on education in a morning, nor do i even see the point for as little as she will be working. i honestly don't even think she will be with us long after she starts nursing school anyway. it's more like how much more can we frustrate mary ann.

i just feel like i can't handle my life right now. i feel like i'm spinning out of control, or like my head is about to pop off.