i think i'm freaking myself out about this weekend. i've worked so hard for it, worried about it, anticipated it, and now it is close. there is nothing i can do now except eat and sleep. i was supposed to have this afternoon off, and that didn't work happen, so i was stuck doing other people work. work was chaos this week as usual. they need to hire someone, and someone who can do everything. they keep hiring na's that don't know how to do much, leaving the fully trained ma's to carry the lions share of the work. then management doesn't understand why we are stress out. they don't understand that incompetent help is worse than no help.

i just need sleep.

on top of everything else, i'm getting my first headache in over three weeks.