i am so nervous. i have a two mile track run in a couple of hours. it is a nothing of a run, and i am totally freaking out. i am so nervous that i'm shaking. it is with the local road runners. it is their first of the twilight series. i like doing them because they get me prepared for the bigger races. they remind me not to start too fast and to get used to the feel of being around a crowd of runners, and being the slowest in the group. i need to leave in about 45 minutes, and i am getting totally, absurdly nervous.

the rest of my day went well. it was my last day of work before the half, and everyone wished me well. i kinda treated it like the day before a vacation, my mind wasn't really at work. i ended up having fun, and talked to lori a lot. she has a big triathlon on sunday that she has been focusing on for months. i wished her well, and she invited me over sunday after our big events for a feast. i doubt i'll go. they tend to drink a lot, and that is not my style.

i had a good visit with dr r today. she is an amazing person. she has been a miracle worker in my life. it is funny to see the human side of her. she is spazing over her move. i am so jealous over her opportunity, and after the dust settles, so will she. i hope i helped calm some of her fears today. she is an amazing person with an amazing opportunity, and if anyone can make the most of it, she can. i envy her and her daughters. if they choose to come back, it will be with a different perspective on many things. i think she will have a hard time getting back into the routine she is in now. she has been of so much benefit to me over the past 8 years, that i hope maybe today i was able to give a little back, she definitely deserves it.

just came from the track. it was a great run! the two miles just flew bye. it was raining, and i met a lady named judy. she and her husband are attempting to get into shape to better their golf game. their goal was just to finish. i crossed the finish line with judy. even through the wind and the rain i had a very enjoyable time. i was actually hoping for a slightly slower time. i really wanted to take the run slow and not tire my legs out for sunday. i did a few things smart with this race though, like not starting too fast, and it has left me very confident of not making stupid mistakes on sunday.

the next two days i coast. i eat, hydrate, and get a pedicure. actually saturday will be busy with the running i'm going to do since i'm taking my mom down to towson for packet pick up and to the cheese cake factory for the pre race dinner. she has wanted a meal from there for a long time, and i promised her this a long time ago. bob can't make it until five, so it will be a litter later than i had hoped. they will probably be crowed by then. oh well, we'll deal with it when it comes.

i feel like there is so much i really should write about, but nothing is coming to me. i wonder if i will be productive at all tomorrow.