it is memorial day weekend and the weather is nice. it is in the low 80s and sunny outside, i just wish i had the energy to enjoy it. i have no clue what is going on. i worked this morning, and my coffee got me through, but now it is early afternoon, and i'm exhausted. i have been taking zyrtec the last couple of weeks, and that can make ppl drowsy, but it shouldn't make me this bad, besides, i take it at night. i have been sleeping well, nothing is waking me up once i am asleep, and i'm falling asleep earlier. last night i fell asleep shortly after ten and had trouble waking up for work. i drug myself out of bed shortly after seven. the fatigue really has me worried. i have no clue how i will do in the half. i hope once i get going i can stay in motion. i will have coffee on the way there, and will consume some caffeine on the course, but, i'm not sure it will be enough. i have always finished what i have started, and i don't mind finishing last, but i have not run in two days, and today my legs felt heavy at work. there is no reason for that feeling. it is the same feeling i get the day after a long run, but there was absolutely no running yesterday. i am trying to taper for the race, and only plan to run three more time before the big race. this is scaring me. i set up a follow up appointment with my regular doctor in a couple of weeks, and hopefully he can run some blood work, and find something out.

i saw the dr yesterday for this itchy rash, and got a cream for an allergy. i hope it works. the rash is driving me crazy.

i would love to get some house cleaning done today, but, if i were a gambling person, i would bet against it. work took all my energy out of me, i am not tired, and have no energy left to clean. peter's family is coming in a little over a month, and i hope to have the house clean for them, thankfully i have over a month. maybe when i have this half out of the way i will have more energy, but i doubt it, besides, i have another half to jump right into training for. not that the training will be super intense, because, my body is not allowing for super intense right now. there is so much i would like to get done around the house this weekend, because it will just mean less to do later, but i'm not sure i have the energy.

is this a physical energy thing, or am i depressed?

just came from tony and maria's. they invited us over for dinner. we had a good time. they served mexican food. it was great. i guess i'm tired, because i'm now sounding like a fun with dick and jane book.

i'm going to bed. i'm going to the kingdom hall tomorrow, and am hoping to get in a five mile run. hopefully porsche can meet me at the gym, but i haven't talked to her yet.