MORE OF THE SAME

ran fast again today. i'm afraid that when i crash, it will be hard. i'm moving so hard and so fast it is unreal. i'm talking too fast at work that it is confusing others, and am pushing myself at the gym every time i go. i am concerned about the crash. in the mean time, how much damage will i do? nothing has happened yet, but i am concerned that something will.

work was uneventful, and the gym was nothing special. i hit the elliptical and did a grueling program. it had hills and was five miles in under 50 minutes. i was pleased with that. i came home and plotted out a new run that i was hoping would be 15 miles, but is only 12. i hope to do that this weekend, but i'm not sure that will happen since we are busy. it hit me suddenly on sunday that i have less than 8 weeks left until my next half. i want this to be a better experience which me being better prepared. i have done well with keeping up with long runs, but i need to get back outside and deal with real hills. i am getting too obsessive about my running, not to the point on not enjoying it, but i can see myself getting too obsessive. i just cannot stop. my mind cannot stop.