CATCHING UP

sometimes i feel like my life is sooooo boring. nothing is really going on. mom quit chemo after a ton of nausea. in my opinion it was over kill to start with, so no prob. she has decided to go forward with radiation. she sees the doctor about that next week. most of the nausea from the treatment three weeks ago is gone, but not completely. her life is mostly back to normal.

work is work, nothing going on there. it is amazing to see how people who are addicts of one kind or another age so quickly. i saw a 55 year old smoker today who could have easily have been mistaken for 70 today. we have some other patients close to my age addicted to prescription meds, and they look so much older than me. it just amazes me. i don't think i look bad for my age, but i'm not hiding it like i used to, but these people are doing things like coloring their hair, and trying to buy the right cloths, but they just look so much older then they are.

i have put seven pounds back on in the past two months. that has me totally freaked out. it has been seven pounds in about nine weeks! mom being sick slowed down the running and lifting, but not that much. not seven pounds worth. i had held my weight for two years then it started inching up. this has got to stop. i am currently one pound lower than my original goal weight. it sounds like i should be happy, but i purchased all my clothes at the weight i had for almost two years, not the goal.

i am making some progress with running. my treadmill time are getting faster. i am getting closer to 11 minuet miles for my five mile runs. my ultimate goal is 10 minute miles, but i expect that to take at least another year. i have added lifting to my agenda. i am shooting for at least twice a week, but three would be nice. i just get so busy with everything. it would be much easier if i had a partner. i am working with a trainer twice a month.

lifted yesterday, and today my hamstrings are tight.

peter and i were going to go to chris and susan's house for the super bowl, but after three months of marriage they are currently separated. i doubt it will last, but it is sad that my two friends are not happy together.