RETURNING TO SELF?

the last couple of days have felt like a return to normalcy. i feel like i've gone through the worst of the bad days, and have more good days ahead. at least that is how i felt until my mom called a little while ago. she has had a minor set back with her oncologist, and will have to have four rounds of chemo before starting radiation. she did not sound well over the phone. i think this has been a real blow to her. she has been very positive through this process, and suddenly she sounds like the wind has been knocked out of her. i feel so bad for her, and there is nothing i can do. i feel so guilty for going away next weekend. on the positive side, steven and claudia are coming into town, and she is looking forward to that. nothing is going to happen until after their visit.

everything else about the last couple of days has been fine. work was no problem yesterday. i did my 4.5 hours, and left. i had a nice workout at the gym, and decided to start taking an otc dose of vitamin d. more and more studies are showing that most americans are not getting enough vitamin d. i have seen a lot of people blood work come back showing a lack of the vitamin, and of the ones in range, a lot of them are on the lower end of normal. i thought i would try it since one of the bigger side effects of low vitamin d is low energy, and i have long complained of that.

i did sleep well last night. i was asleep before 9:30 and didn't get up until after 9:30 this morning! i was shocked when i realized how much i slept. i thought if i got up early i would be able to get up early. there were a few things i wanted to accomplish this morning. i was able to get everything done, but not in the morning! peter and i worked together this afternoon and evening to get done what needed to be done. we are busy tomorrow. i work in the morning, and we have a chili cook off with the neighbors in the afternoon, and an engagement party for heather and ben in the evening. the party is an outdoor event, and it is going to be freezing, i mean lower than 40, i am going to freeze!