i thought i was doing well today, but the pressure from within just kept mounting. i found myself unable to deal with little things. i didn't snap an anyone, or anything, i totally wanted to. i felt overwhelmed at work even though there was not much to do there.
i saw maureen and she took my blood pressure. it was 130 over something. she told me to take my xanax. i totally needed to calm down. i chose to take her advice when i got home. the rest of my visit with her was uneventful. i can go four months between visits since i have had so few headaches. i fact for which i am grateful.
i ran the trails tonight. i was hoping to stay out an hour. i ended up being out 90 minutes. i got lost and waisted a lot of time. it was a great learning experience. the next time i think my timing will work out perfectly though b/c my detour was just about 30 minutes. my head was much clearer while running.
i don't know if the nerves are from the upcoming race, or the assembly next weekend. either way, i never do well around a lot of people. they are both going to be crowded events. something has me reved up, and it has to give soon because i cannot maintain this level for much longer.
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