today i was faced with a decision that i have been wrestling with for at least six months. dr r is back and ready to reclaim her patients. when she left it totally was not an issue, it was going to be an automatic decision, but a lot can change in a year. i completely respect dr r's creativity and how she had brought me out from a bad place. i do not know where i would be with out her, but certainly not here. the flip side of the issue, i am just amazed at how well teri can read me. there is no getting anything past her. she can see through me, and i find great comfort in that. part of me feels that i need both of them in my life, but that is not an option. i was not prepared to like teri so much. i know in the end that i need dr r to be making the calls when they are hard to make, and i could have used her creativity when i had that episode this spring.
i am not doing well today, but that is because i have the race so close. the heat has been too much for me this summer and i have lost a lot of stamina. i am totally unprepared for this half. i want to crawl under a rock for two months and have someone tell me i made the right decisions when i came out. my two halves will be done, and my decision to see dr r will have been enacted upon.
i guess i'm lucky if this is the worst thing going on in my life.
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